Before I was a mom--I find this very true!


Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were
poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on..
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could
do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby
sleep.
Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't
want to put him down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I
couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my
life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside
my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a
hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her
child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me
feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom -
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every
10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the
heartache,
the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before
I was a Mom.
Elizabeth O.
I don't know who Elizabeth O is, but I love this. I feel that it is so true for me. I remember nights when I would just watch my kids sleep or even pick them up out of their cribs to hold them while they are sleeping (actually, I still have some of those nights!) I am often running around doing so much at once that I forget what I am even doing, in the meantime, I am tripping over toys and shoes!!!! I enjoy being a mom and I never knew that I could love like this. Now I have a small glimpse of how much God loves me. I am thankful that the Lord entrusts me with these 2 children that are really His, but that He has loaned to me to care for on this Earth. I know I don't deserve them, but I am thankful for His grace each day as I wake, that I get another day with my amazing Haitian Angels!!!!

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Rose Anne said…
Cheri Kay,
Happy Mother's!
I know excactly what you mean! I Thank God everyday that he has allowed me to be Mommy to Saul Pierre!
God Bless,
Rose Anne
May 9, 2008 at 10:35 PM
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