Thursday, November 19, 2009

Loving life, moving forward, and thrilled to be a mom!!!

Life is about to get very interesting for this little princess! I am pleased to announce that we got to finally schedule the Cochlear Implant Surgery for Ecrissa!!!! After lots of tests to be sure that she is a medical candidate and has the potential to benefit from this surgery, it was scheduled for January 13 2010!!! YAY!!! I am happy, excited, and a bit nervous too! I know that this is going to be a trying time for all of us. She'll be going through some pain, lots of adjustments, lots of therapy, and all sorts of new experiences. I am so excited for her, yet I know that it's not going to be an easy road, especially at first!


These two previous pictures were taken before her little ballet performance that she was so privileged to be a part of. SHE. LOVED. IT!!!! Her ballet group got to perform at the intermission of a ballroom dance competition and she had so much fun on stage performing in front of all those people! She is NOT shy!!!! She came out skipping, waving and bowing way before it was time to bow!!! LOL!!! She is full of energy and she loves to dance!

Jaryse refuses to admit that he's tired. Then........he conks out in the funniest positions, like sitting up!!!!! He refused to take a nap the other day, then 2 minutes later, I found him sitting up on the couch where he was watching the movie that I had put in for Ecrissa, sound asleep! He's so funny!!!!
Same with the picture below! We had been home for him to take a nap. He kept telling me he was NOT tired, and he did not fall asleep. Until we were at Ecrissa's ballet performance, in which he must have decided was not worth watching and he again, slept sitting up!

Hope you are all having a wonderful week! It's been a great one for us! Some how this week we've had time to chill on the couch together and we've not been running around like crazy people, but the weird thing is, that I've actually worked more this week than some weeks that seemed much crazier! I think it's my new commitment to not being perfect!!!! Read the previous post if you are confused! But, seriously, I really have allowed myself to slow down, live life and just be still at times! It is so nice! But, if you want to pee in a perfectly clean toilet, DON'T come to my house right now! But, if you want to hang out on the couch and color and read bedtime stories, or watch a movie with some popcorn, come on over!!!!







Monday, November 9, 2009

My new goal.

Set forth from this day forward I will strive to .......................... NOT BE PERFECT.

Yep, that's it. That's my new goal. I am going to strive to not be perfect. To stop living each day as if I can somehow be it all in all and doing all and knowing all and doing all and all the all's that I just can't do! I am tired of trying to be so perfect in my life, that I live in frustration that somehow I'm letting my perfectly wonderful children down. I want to leave my house a mess for a day so that I can sit on my son's bed and read stories with him and his sister----WITHOUT feeling guilty for it. I want to forget that there is laundry to do so that I can take the kids for a bike ride and NOT FEEL bad about leaving the laundry. I can't do both! So, when it comes to choosing, I'm choosing my kids AND no guilt. Usually I choose the kids PLUS guilt. I am going to stop multi-tasking (to the best of my ability) so that I can enjoy making dinner and giving my kids a bath. I love my life and I am going to stop trying to be the perfect mother and just be the perfect imperfect mother that I am. And, I am going to love every imperfect minute of it!!!!

Today, I am setting the goal of accepting me. The perfectly imperfect me.